I am a Mess 🎀 🐇 🌺

I am a mess. Literally. Mentally and physically. Let’s start off with the fact that  I have so many things going on at the moment of my life like school, my upcoming party, musical rehearsals, keeping up with my blog, trying to keep my social life, Saddleback classes, piano, etc. My life feels like it is going miles and miles per minute, not even per minute, per second. I only ever get to breathe when I am around certain people but I am not always around those people. These past few months have felt so weird, I am sad, I am happy, I am sad again, I am happy again. A spiral of emotions? Yes, let’s call it that. I thought that would go away but it’s been about a year that I have felt like this. Sad and happy, it's so weird that I can’t even explain it. It got so bad during winter that my best friend and I genuinely thought that maybe I was depressed (I am not, don't worry). The point is I want to live in the moment, do things one at a time, and balance having fun and doing my work (that means I need to start cutting off screen time on my phone). 

Let’s Get Our Shit Together:

1. I am getting a damn planner. Oh my lord, the amount of times I told myself that I would keep a planner and write everything down…let's just say it never lasted. BUT I have way too many things on my plate that I need to start carrying around one, even if it means that I have to create one from one of my bajillion notebooks. This planner will help me get things straight and help me figure out my priorities for the day. 

2. Morning skincare, Night skincare. A way to get my shit together is by sticking to a night and morning routine. These past few months I’ve been hitting snooze on my alarm more than I have lived, I haven’t iced my face as often, and during my late mornings I don’t work as much as I used to. Coming up with a consistent routine will help me stay consistent during my day. It will be more productive, more structured. 

3. Start meditating. I told my boyfriend about this today, how I wanted to start meditating. I think this would be a good way to start off my day, by collecting my thoughts and getting in the zone. I’ve seen a lot of videos on instagram about the benefits of meditating and I think it would be fun to start something new. 

4. 30 minutes, 30 minutes. Ever since I started having musical rehearsals my schedule changes each week, it is always wacky. So I never really know what day I will have time for piano class and singing class. With that I have been lacking a little bit in my piano practice, but I don’t want my hectic schedule to stop me from practicing my passions. Each day I will do 30 minutes of piano, whether it is in the morning or at night. I will also try to get some writing time in since I have also been lacking on my blog even though I have so many ideas flowing for the upcoming posts. 

5. New Outfits, New Confidence. I am so grateful for my mom because not only did she help me come up with so many outfit ideas for the week she also helped me pick out cute bows for each outfit and is even helping me look for a top for a special day that is coming up. I think looking through your closet and seeing what you haven't worn is a great way to get your shit together because you are building back your confidence.

Life can be messy. But the key is to keep going and give yourself the opportunity to grow as a person. Whether you are struggling right now or everything is going the way you want it to be there is always space to explore and expand. Learn new things. Go out. Have fun. Learn. Be present. I love you guys all so much!

Bye Bye

XoXo, Maria E.V 🩷