I meditated for almost a week, and here is what I learned. Meditating is a very interesting thing, and I would say that it can go many different ways for each person. They say that meditating makes you happier, but to be honest, that isnāt really true. It doesnāt give you happiness; itās not like, "Hey, in 5 minutes I can make you happier for the rest of your life." No, that isnāt how it works. For me, meditation is an escape. It is 5 minutes of my day where I get to forget about my problems and be in the moment. Obviously, the aftermath of it is always different; I either end up losing all of my negative thoughts as soon as my eyes blink open or all my thoughts rush back to me after letting them go for a while. I accept both. I let myself think and not think. I know that it is normal, and I have learned to control them with meditation. Let me walk you through my journey, one day at a time. I talk a lot about how I was calm all the time after meditations, hopefully in the given amount of time maybe I will become a calmer person in general.
Day 1: I meditated on the floor today before doing my makeup. I curled my lashes and then thought, āI should meditate right now,ā and so I stopped what I was doing and found an app for guided meditations and did my āfirst-day meditation.ā Picture this: me, with one hand on my mascara wand and the other trying to find my inner zen. Needless to say, it was a hilarious sight! I never knew that meditation did so much even if itās so simple. I thought my mind was going to wander off into space; of course, it did, but towards the end when I tried really hard to focus on my breathing, I was able to be in the moment and only think of my breathing and what the lady on my phone was saying. And when I opened my eyes, the weirdest sensation came to my body, like I had just opened my eyes for the first time ever; it was a refresh. A new start. It is so hard to describe and share out that first feeling of when you open your eyes. It is like seeing light after a dark day for the first time. Your eyes try to adjust, and everything around you is familiar yet it feels new; you almost feel unreal.
Day 2: Woah. I wasnāt able to meditate in the morning, but during lunch, I decided to go by the bleachers and meditate there instead. There's something surprisingly calming about connecting with nature, even if it's just for a few minutes. The tension that I had during the morning was let out after my meditation. I was stretching my mind and letting it move around.
Day 3: Things that I have noticed with meditating is how focused and unfocused I can be with it. Right after I meditate, I am either focused and ready to go on with my day, or I am unfocused and I let my thoughts wander right away as I finish my session of meditation. But I am certainly getting way better at being in the moment and focusing more on my breath rather than other thoughts! I also like that the guide gives you different scenarios of how to focus on your breath. Today the guide compared our breathing and body language to how we welcome people we love, with a big heart. This thought process made my heart rate slow down and feel calmer than before.
Day 4: Oh my. Today was a very interesting day. I was stressed and felt very sad. I also wasnāt able to meditate in the morning, but all I could think of during the day was when can I meditate? Ugh, I wish I could meditate right nowā¦It is official, I am addicted to meditating. While I was reading a couple of days ago about the cons of meditating, one of them was that people tend to like meditation because it helps forget about their problems and come to peace with them. But how is that a con? Isnāt that a good thing? Meditating is serene for the body and is supposed to help you let out anything you have, which is why some people cry when meditating, but meditating is also supposed to help you release and forget about everything for just 5-10 minutes. So it isnāt a con to me. Especially since these meditations seem to definitely have an impact on my emotions because it lets me perceive them easier.
Day 5: My last and final day that I am writing about my meditations, and today I meditated without a guide for the first time, and it was very interesting. I put on my AirPods and listened to ocean sounds from the app Calm and decided to take all of the techniques that I learned from the guides and put it all together, focused on my breathing and was able to maintain my thoughts away. I definitely liked it better than having a guide because I was able to let myself wander into thoughts and then tell myself to focus back on breathing. It was a new challenge but it was very worth it because I learned to have control.
I have a new challenge for you guys this week, try some meditations! It is a whole new world that you will never want to come back from.
Wishing you all a week filled with mindfulness and love!
Bye Bye
XoXo, Maria E.V <3
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